After being sick for so long, I finally have a name for my illness: Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome, otherwise known as P.O.T.S.

A cardiac condition that's stripped me of my health, weight (causing me to drop to anorexic weight), self confidence, friends, jobs and continuing my education.

My goals are simple: gain weight, be healthier, and get out more. Basically, get my life back!

I'm also hoping to spread some awareness on this little known condition, and to highlight the struggles of the underweight and people with "invisible illnesses."

Monday, June 6, 2011

This is getting really old.

Once again, I'm in a bad place.

To the best of my observations, the new meds aren't helping me any.
I take it, and an hour later my head starts tingling away; which leads to chills and cold sweats.
The tingling compounds with a migraine that follows shortly after.
The migraine then leads to an upset stomach...
On top of this, my POTS symptoms aren't alleviated any (to my knowledge).

They say to give any new medication a couple of months to wear work their way into your system.
Which, I can understand...but what happens if they aren't helping?
It's only been a week, and I can't expect miracles...but I shouldn't be expecting to feel weird and gross and sweaty and shivery. I shouldn't need pants and a sweater when it's 90 degrees out.
(yes, I wore pants and a freakin sweater today.)

What if this doesn't work and I've wasted 2-3 months of time, energy and money on something that doesn't provide me with anything positive?

In the meantime, tomorrow my credit card payment goes through.
After that, I will have $11 to my name.
Not even enough to cover next month's prescriptions; whether they're helping or not.

Eleven. Dollars.
That's it.

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