After being sick for so long, I finally have a name for my illness: Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome, otherwise known as P.O.T.S.

A cardiac condition that's stripped me of my health, weight (causing me to drop to anorexic weight), self confidence, friends, jobs and continuing my education.

My goals are simple: gain weight, be healthier, and get out more. Basically, get my life back!

I'm also hoping to spread some awareness on this little known condition, and to highlight the struggles of the underweight and people with "invisible illnesses."

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

taking a break for a little bit. things are getting to be really rough at home and it's just not a main focus to record everything i eat right now

Saturday, July 17, 2010

day 82 (my sister's favorite)

breakfast: two slices of nutella bread with extra nutella (~800c)
snack: 3 garlic stuffed olives and pepperjack cheez-its (220c)
dinner: extra potato pancakes with sour cream and facon with ginger ale (~750c)
snack: ensure plus (350c)

total: 2120. thank heavens for nutella- it really saved me today. i had to get my foot x-rayed so i missed lunch completely and by the time i got home it wasn't worth eating so i just waited until dinner.

Friday, July 16, 2010

day 81

breakfast: ensure plus (350c)
lunch: rest of cheese stuffed burger with chips (~510c)
snack: freeze pop (20c) part of a toblerone (110c)
dinner: potato pancakes with sour cream and facon with ginger ale (~550c)
snack: ensure plus (350c)

total: 1890. not the greatest, but seeing as i had such a rough night that i slept until 11...i'm reasonably pleased with the calorie count

day 80

ensure plus x2, garlic stuffed olives, chips, hamburger with cheese, sparkling water, kit kat (not in that order necessarily). i didn't count the calories

Thursday, July 15, 2010

day 79

i'll be honest...i know it was yesterday, but i don't remember what i ate.

ensure plus, kit kat, hamburger with cheese, some ginger ale....i don't know exactly. stuff lol

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

day 78

breakfast: two slices nutella bread (~600c)
lunch: chicken fingers, corn on the cob, potato chips, gingerale (~660c)
snack: kit kat bar (210c)
dinner: potato pancakes with cheddar cheese, sour cream, and facon with ginger ale (~640c)


total: 2110

Monday, July 12, 2010

day 77

brunch: ensure plus and trix (460c)
snack: peppermint patty (150c)
lunch: stir fry (see previous) plus chips and 3 glasses of lemonade (~400+150+180= ~730c)
dinner:grilled corn and lemon pepper grilled chicken with two slices of bread with butter and ginger ale (906c)
snack: two slices nutella (light on it tonight though) (~500c)

total: 2746. what a fatty. thank heaven for butter...which is crazy high in calories and low volume between the bitter on my corn/cooking the chicken/bread and butter it was probably an easy 400c

Sunday, July 11, 2010

day 76

brunch: ensure plus (350c)
snack: potato chips (~150c)
lunch: delicious homemade stir fry! beef, rice, baby corn, mushrooms, water chestnuts and bean sprouts (~400c)
dinner: chicken fingers, french fries with dr. pepper (~800c)
snack: ensure plus (350c)

total: 2050

Saturday, July 10, 2010

day 75

brunch: ensure plus, luna:chocolate brownie bar (530c)
snacks (throughout the day): king sized kitkat (420c) and m&ms (230c)= (650c)
dinner: delicious homemade stir fry! beef, rice, baby corn, mushrooms, water chestnuts and bean sprouts (~400c)
snack: ensure plus (350c)

total: 1930

Friday, July 9, 2010

day 74

breakfast: two slices nutella bread (~600c)
lunch: two mini burgers with pepperjack cheese and fried onions. (~350c)
dinner: mini pizza with olive oil, cheese, and green olives plus ginger ale (~820c thanks to high calorie olive oil)
snack: hersheys with almond (210c)

total: 1980

day 73

breakfast: ensure plus (350c)
snack: water, cheez-its (~350c)
dinner: mini hamburgers (~300c)

total: probably a bit more than 1000. yesterday was just AWFUL because of the heat. just horrible, i could barely eat (obv)

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

day 72

breakfast: ensure plus (350c)
snack: salted almonds, water, cheez-its (~350c)
lunch: salami (6 slices) on rye with mustard and potato chips. plus three garlic stuffed olives and tons of water (~564c)
snack: hersheys with almonds, sparkling water
dinner: 2 pieces of bread with tons of nutella (was supposed to be pizzas, but the heat got to me again and eat this until almost 11pm :(....~700c )

total: 1964

day 71

breakfast: ensure plus (350c)
daytime snack: lime sparkling water, cheese-it pepperjack crackers, potato chips, hershey with almonds, kit kat(~810c)
dinner: none :(


total: 1160


POTS+heat is awful. i tried to snack on things all day that the doctor wanted...but i still got horribly sick and didn't eat dinner. i went to the town band concert, and tried a kit kat (the doctor said chocolate is good for POTS) and i was incredibly sick and had to run out at the end. i'm going to try better tomorrow. i'm drinking and eating as much as i can but the heat is just too much for me.

Monday, July 5, 2010

day 70

breakfast: ensure plus (350c)
lunchtime snack: orange sparkling water, cheese-it pepperjack crackers (new- and yummy!), garlic stuffed olives, small glass dr pepper, pringles (not all at once lol ~510c)
dinner: hamburger, bread, 2 slices pepperjack cheese, gingerale (680c)
snack: hershey almond (210c)

total: 1750

Sunday, July 4, 2010

day 69

breakfast: ensure plus (350c)
lunch: half ribbon fry, half funnel cake, lemonade (crazy like...~850c easily)
dinner: hamburger, bread, condiments. (500c)
snack: hersheys with almond (210c)

total: 1910

well, today was my first day back...and i decided to treat myself to some ribbon fries and funnel cake which i'm sure i'll pay dearly for. not the greatest calorie day...but the grease from the fries/cake made me feel so sick to my stomach for HOURS (a big factor in why i don't eat like that anymore). tomorrow i know will be better though; still trying to get my bearings from the stress of travel on my body.