day 40

Breakfast: Nutella bread- 2 slices (600c)
Lunch: potatoe pancakes with cheese, sour cream and bacon plus lemonade (540c)
Dinner: steak with grilled potatoes and ginger ale (~400c)
Extra:hersheys with almond bar (210c)

Total Calorie Count: 1750

Awesome Thing of the Day: zack's home, thank god

day 39

Breakfast: Nutella bread- 2 slices (600c)
Lunch: p.f. changs pepper steak with potato chips (600c)
Dinner: mcdonald's hamburger with small fry and dr. pepper (580c)
Extra: 1/8 cups almonds and hawaiian delight baby food (213c)
extra dinner: finished the p.f. changs with some more potato chips (~400c). we had dinner at 4:30, and seeing as it's 12:45- i'm starving!

Total Calorie Count: 2393

Awesome Thing of the Day: being productive! i cleaned the whole house, did the dishes, scrubbed the pool cover, hosed down all the outdoor furniture, changed the water for my fish (really my sister's but she doesn't take care of them, so they're mine now) and did all the laundry.

day 38

Breakfast: ensure plus (350c)
Snack: 1/8 cup of salted almonds (113c)
Snack: chips with 2 glasses lemonade (~400c)
Dinner: pepper steak with onions, peppers, and rice with gingerale (~550c)
Extra: ensure plus (350c)

Total Calorie Count: 1763c

Awesome Thing of the Day: sassy's back for a visit

day 37

Breakfast: Almond Pastry (~600c)
Lunch: crackers, cheese and pepperoni with glass dr. pepper (519c)
Snack: hawaiian delight baby food and 1/8 cup roasted almonds with salt (213c)
Dinner: pancakes with sour cream and strawberries (400c)
Extra: Ensure Plus (350c)

Total Calorie Count: 2082

Awesome Thing of the Day: sunshine

day 36

Breakfast: Nutella Bread (2 slices)- 600c
Lunch: Potato pancakes with sour cream, cheddar cheese, facon bits and two glasses of lemonade (580c)
Dinner: pancakes with sour cream and strawberries (400c)
Extra: small glass of dr. pepper (100c)
Snack: Fiber One bar (90c)

Total Calorie Count: 1770

Awesome Thing of the Day: zack finally making it to vegas- i've been super worried about him (he's had food poisoning and altitude sickness)

day 35

Breakfast: Manhattan Bagel- plain with 2tbsp plain cream cheese and 1 glass cranberry juice (540c)
Snack: almond pastry (600c at least)
Dinner: potato pancakes with sour cream, cheddar cheese, facon bits. (430c)
Extra: kit kat bar (180c)

Total Calorie Count: 1750

Awesome Thing of the Day: sunshine

day 34

Breakfast: 210c
Snack: 170+200= 370c
Dinner: hamburger and fries with gingerale- two glasses. 250+200+400=850
Extra: nutella bread 400c.

Total Calorie Count: 1830

Awesome Thing of the Day: nice day in buffalo

somehow even though the nutritionist told me i needed 1700 calories per day to gain a pound a week, over the last month-ish i've lost 3 pounds. i'm very pissed off and upset and really don't want to do any of this anymore.

day 33

Breakfast: hersheys with almond bar- (210c)
Snack: dr pepper with potato chips (~350c)
Dinner: pancakes with sour cream and strawberries! plus applesauce baby food(~750c)
Extra: kit kat bar (180c)
Night Snack: kashi go lean crunch almond chocolate bar- yummy. (170c) Ensure Plus (350c)

Total Calorie Count: 2010. (the year we made contact- lol joke just for zack)

Awesome Thing of the Day: i think the picture speaks for itself (even though making them was a huge pain in the ass)

day 32

Breakfast: hersheys with almond bar- bad but that's all i had a taste for- (210c)
Lunch: chiavetta's chicken and roll (~500c)
Snack: dr pepper (~120c)
Dinner: rest of chiavetta's chicken with baked potato- sour cream, butter, and cheddar cheese. plus dr pepper. (~1100c)

Total Calorie Count: 1930. not bad.

Awesome Thing of the Day: finding star wars pancake molds. yeah, i know!

for some reason in the middle of the day i was horribly sick. hopefully it isn't a bug. i really had to push to make calories today.

day 31

Breakfast: Nutella Bread (~400c)
Lunch: breakfast cookies (homemade) (~400c)
Extra: tiramisu super late (~300c)

Total Calorie Count: 1000. sucky, i know. but i had an upset stomach from dinner last night until around dinner time, then i went to a wake and that pretty much killed everything. i'll do better tomorrow.

Awesome Thing of the Day: seeing some old friends- not how you ever want to (at a wake) but it was still nice to see them

i have a feeling today's going to be a pretty bad diet day. turns out either the dinner or the dessert last night made me very, very sick this morning (and all day so far) so my stomach's pretty upset and i'm trying to take it easy.

day 30! - weigh in day

Breakfast: Nutella Bread (~400c)
Lunch: rest of pod with garlic bread, olive oil, green olives, pepperoni, cheese...with limeade (~500c)
Snack: homemade chex mix (~200c worth)
Dinner: wanchai ferry spicy garlic chicken with peppers, broccoli, carrots, and water chestnuts, with rice. plus dr. pepper (810c)
Extra: small serving of homemade egg-free tiramisu (~200c)

Total Calorie Count: 2110. awesome. i feel a little sick from the dinner, so we'll see

Awesome Thing of the Day: the wanchai ferry was actually really delicious, and very good for you. hopefully it doesn't end up making me sick later because i would like to have it again.

Today is the one month mark of keeping up with my diet and working on it, so i'm going to weigh in later today and hopefully it's done some good.

day 29

Brunch: apple pastry (~450c)
Snack: lays chips and glass of dr. pepper (~400c)
Dinner: half of a pizza plant pod with cheese, pepperoni, olive oil, and green olives. plus dr pepper (~500c)
Extra: Hershey with almonds bad (210c, handful of sweettarts (50c)

Total Calorie Count: 1610. just shy, bummer. but normally i have a midnight snack and tonight i went to bed early and didn't have any.

Awesome Thing of the Day: i might be able to keep sassy!

day 28

Brunch: Almond pocket pastry- so yummy!- (~700c at least)
Snack: new lays potato chips (170c)
Dinner: steak kabobs with onions, green peppers and grilled potatoes, glass of dr. pepper (~800c) (dessert: hershey with almond bar-210c)
Extra: roll of sweetarts candy (120c)...later some popcorn (~20c worth.)

Total Calorie Count: 2020. kicked ass today.

Awesome Thing of the Day: spending 12+ hours with zack...a first in a reallllllly long time.

it's going to be tough the next week or two, i'm cutting out the ensure to see if my face clears up at all. so now i'll have 700c per day i have to make up for.

working out is also on hold for a while because i'm just not gaining the weight like i should be- i know i have a couple of days where i didn't make my calorie count, but on average i do and am still not making it.

day 27

Breakfast: Ensure Plus (350c)
Lunch: none- busy working outside
Snack: chocolate ice cream to try and coat my stomach (~300c)
Dinner: large hamburger w/ bun. (~300c)
Extra: Ensure Plus (350c)

Total Calorie Count: 1300. :(

Awesome Thing of the Day: i don't remember lol

tomorrow morning i'll be calling the doctors to see if they can extend my acid reflux meds. i definitely feel as crappy as i did before when i had this problem before. i'm hoping after talking to my dad on tuesday, i'll feel a little better too.

day 26

Breakfast: Ensure Plus (350c)
Lunch: bagel twist and cream cheese- which is about 2 full bagels. i'm going to explode lol (700c)
Snack: cheese and popcorn (random i know) (~100c)
Extra: french fries (150c) bread + nutella (~350c)

Total Calorie Count: 1650. good enough

Awesome Thing of the Day: sassy visit

my diet's gotten very off track lately. my stomachs been funky, but towards the end of today it's starting to feel better. so i have a feeling tomorrow my diet will be better. all the family crap's really starting to get to me and i think my ulcers back :(

day 25

Breakfast: Ensure Plus (350c)
Lunch: roasted chicken sandwich with gingerale (~600c)
Snack: two small cupcakes with frosting (~250c)
Dinner: small amount of rice :(
Extra: nutella on bread, ensure plus (~700c)

Total Calorie Count: 1900

Awesome Thing of the Day: made arrangements to have my official transcript sent to texas a&m. it's a long shot, but worth it. the application will be going tomorrow. traffic was good, it's sunny, i found a parking meter with 30mins of parking in it so i wouldn't have to pay...general good luck- maybe i should buy a lottery ticket lol

day 24

Breakfast: Ensure Plus (350c)
Snack: 4 small cupcakes (~500c)
Dinner: roasted chicken with baked potatoes (~500c)
Extra: Ensure Plus (350c)

Total Calorie Count: 1700. just made it

Awesome Thing of the Day: yay for being done with class. other than that, a really crappy day.

day 23

Breakfast: Ensure Plus (350c)
Snack: Nutella on bread (~300c)
Lunch: baked potato- cheddar cheese, bacon bits, sour cream, butter. plus mushrooms (~550c)
Snack: Nutella on bread (~300c) yes, i have an addiction.
Dinner: skipped. all my calories over the last few days caught up with me
Extra: Ensure Plus (350c) two mini cupcakes.

Total Calorie Count: 2000

Awesome Thing of the Day: cupcakes.

i'm running out of motivation. gaining weight is hard and sucks and i'm so tired of having to force myself to eat. i just want to eat when i want to, and what i want to. i've been stagnant for two months at 94-95 pounds even though i'm eating more. it's frustrating. my mom says it's good that i'm at least staying stable, but i'm tired of trying so hard. and i'm tired of being frustrated that when i have a bad day, it can undo two weeks worth of work.

day 22

Breakfast: Ensure (250c)
Snack: 1/4 cup granola (140c)
Lunch: steak with baked potato, cheese, sour cream, butter, bacon bits. gingerale (~700 calories)
Snack: nutella on bread (~250c)
Dinner: spinach salad with shredded cheddar cheese, ranch dressing, mushrooms, and bacon bits. (~200c)
Extra: Ensure Plus (350c)

Total Calorie Count: 1890

Awesome Thing of the Day: zack + scrabble = <3

day 21

Breakfast: Ensure (250c)
Snack: cheese and crackers (50c)
Lunch: mac and cheese with mustard, ginger ale (500c)
Dinner: steak, potatoes with sour cream, butter, salt. (350c)
Snack: half niagara candy bar (180c)
Extra: cinnamon roll (480c)

Total Calorie Count: 1810

Awesome Thing of the Day: molly. i love puppies and am so glad she's going to be okay.

day 20

Breakfast: Ensure Plus (350c) (again, late...i was up in the middle of the night sick, so i'm probably going to take it easy today)
Lunch: massive cinnamon roll (480c)
Snack: half niagara mint candy bar (180c)
Extra: small coffee with sugar and whole milk, french fries (a whopping 500c)
Dinner-ish: Ensure Regular (250c) - i ran out of the high calorie one :(

Total Calorie Count: 1760

Awesome Thing of the Day: waking up to snow. yeah yeah, it's may...but it was a nice change of pace from the pouring rain for the last two days. plus i like jeans and sweater weather lol (i have an excessive love for sweaters)

really poor diet day. this headache is killing me. if it's not better tomorrow, i'll be going to the doctors for it. tomorrow i'll get back on the better food diet though.

day 19

Breakfast: Ensure Plus (350c) (pretty late, i was exhausted)
Snack: taco dip, chips and gingerale (350c)
Dinner: salmon, rice, daiquiri (700c)
Snack: ginger ale (150c)brownie (120c)

Exercise: none today- my head is still killing me. if it doesn't stop in the next day or two i'm going to have to go to the doctors :(

Total Calorie Count: 1670. just made it. my poor concussed brain really is impeding my ability to eat lol

Awesome Thing of the Day: hanging out at zack and mike's. i love them both, and it's awesome to have somewhere to escape my house for a while.

day 18

Breakfast: Ensure Plus (350c)
Snack: pringles (150c)
Lunch: 1/2 ted's italian sausage with pickle, ketchup and mustard, fries, dr. pepper (an amazing 800 calories)
Dinner: steak and baked potato (which i could have had more :() small brownie (350c)
Snack: Ensure Plus (350 c)
Extra: dr pepper (100c)

Exercise: laundry and moving crap

Total Calorie Count: 2100. wow...no wonder i feel gross lol

Awesome Thing of the Day: thunderstorms. zack and i turned off the lights and just watched them, incredible. until, of course, the screen door ripped off and scared the hell out of us lol

day 17

Breakfast: Ensure Plus (350c)
Dinner: bite of new frozen salmon entree( was awful and ruined my taste for food.)
Snack: gingerale and pringles (to try and calm my stomach) (300c)
Extra: Ensure Plus (350c)

Exercise: none. zack and i think i might have a concussion thanks to pepper cracking my head open with hers.

Total Calorie Count: abysmal. zack says any calories are better than no calories, but still.

Awesome Thing of the Day: zack. he's the one thing that keeps me going every day.

day 16

Breakfast: Ensure Plus (350c)
Snack: 8 pieces sweettarts candy (120c)
Lunch: ginger ale, baked potato, facon bits, sour cream, butter, shredded cheese (600c)
Dinner: colby jack cheese, lasagna noodles, salad dressing (300c)
Snack: pringles (150c)
Extra: Ensure Plus (350c)

Exercise: walking the nature trail :)

Total Calorie Count: 1870

Awesome Thing of the Day: the most gorgeous day in buffalo to date! oh, and people who come mow the lawn so now i don't have to. (this is our first year doing this, and i LOVE it lol)

day 15

Breakfast: Ensure Plus (350c)
Lunch: ginger ale, rice cakes, luna bar (~350c)
Dinner: english muffin pizzas- turkey pepperoni, cheese, green olives, pizza sauce with dr. pepper. (~500c)
Snack: Ensure Plus (350c)
Extra:

Exercise: no, i got cracked in the head by pepper and just walking hurts :(

Total Calorie Count: 1500. i'll do better tomorrow

Awesome Thing of the Day: being almost done with class!

day 14

Breakfast: Ensure Plus (350c)
Lunch:
Snack: pringles and ginger ale (300c)
Dinner: baked chicken, loaded baked potato (~700c)
Snack: Ensure Plus (350c)
Extra: few pringles (100c)

Exercise: no, i was actually not even going to have a meal today, but thankfully zack pushed me

Total Calorie Count: 1800. glad i made it

Awesome Thing of the Day: dogs. nothing better than waking up and getting a puppy kiss to start the day. or being cuddled up between two puppies at night.

day 13

Breakfast: Ensure Plus (350c) with benefiber (terrible idea- it doesnt dissolve in this, so i ended up drinking chunks of crap. very gross)
Lunch: -none-
Snack: two slices colby jack (160 c)
Dinner: cheddar rice cakes, two slices pepperjack cheese. (250c maybe)
Snack: none
Extra: two glasses dr pepper. (300c)

Exercise: none today. with how my heads been killing me i haven't been able to eat and didn't want to burn the calories.

Total Calorie Count: 1060. fail again.

Awesome Thing of the Day: cinemagic channel on XM. i was driving and love listening to the movie scores on this channel, so i flipped to the station and "be careful it's my heart" sung by bing crosby came on. (from holiday inn- only my FAV movie) i almost melted and passed out in the car. i was THAT happy. a one in a million shot that i would hear that on the radio- less, maybe 10 billion to one. definitely made me the happiest girl alive.

day 12

Breakfast: Ensure Plus (350c)
Lunch: -none-
Dinner: pasta, olives, dressing. (200c)
Snack: nutella on bread (200c)
Extra: almond hershey kisses, in an attempt to eradicate my migraine. miserable fail. also dr pepper (at a different time for the same reason-also a fail) (250c)

Exercise: done.

Total Calorie Count: 1000. yeah. i know.

Awesome Thing of the Day: the smell of rain. and the coolness right after a good down pour- two of my favorite things.

i've had a horribly miserable migraine for 5 days now. i've tried excedrin, motrin, caffeine, and everything else that might even remotely help. normally a motrin/dr pepper combo does the trick, no such luck. i'm really at my wits end about it because it upsets my ability to eat so greatly and there's nothing else i can try. the only comforting part is that it's not my fault. i'm still trying to do what i can.