After being sick for so long, I finally have a name for my illness: Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome, otherwise known as P.O.T.S.

A cardiac condition that's stripped me of my health, weight (causing me to drop to anorexic weight), self confidence, friends, jobs and continuing my education.

My goals are simple: gain weight, be healthier, and get out more. Basically, get my life back!

I'm also hoping to spread some awareness on this little known condition, and to highlight the struggles of the underweight and people with "invisible illnesses."

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Awful Day

Today was a horrible POTS day.
I spent almost the entire day in bed.

I got up early to send a package to a friend, and when I was at the post office I couldn't feel my legs or my arm. I started to get dizzy and my heart started pounding. My arrhythmia went crazy. I wasn't panicking, but my chest and head started to hurt.

I went home, and I could barely move. I could barely lift my arms or stand. I couldn't breathe.
I almost passed out in the bathroom.

I thought maybe I had forgotten my meds, but when I double checked I definitely had taken them.

I crawled into bed, and cried myself to sleep. Much later, I was able to eat something and move back downstairs but I couldn't do anything else. Still too tired and almost completely debilitated.

Hopefully, tomorrow will bring a better day.

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