After being sick for so long, I finally have a name for my illness: Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome, otherwise known as P.O.T.S.

A cardiac condition that's stripped me of my health, weight (causing me to drop to anorexic weight), self confidence, friends, jobs and continuing my education.

My goals are simple: gain weight, be healthier, and get out more. Basically, get my life back!

I'm also hoping to spread some awareness on this little known condition, and to highlight the struggles of the underweight and people with "invisible illnesses."

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

taking a break for a little bit. things are getting to be really rough at home and it's just not a main focus to record everything i eat right now

Saturday, July 17, 2010

day 82 (my sister's favorite)

breakfast: two slices of nutella bread with extra nutella (~800c)
snack: 3 garlic stuffed olives and pepperjack cheez-its (220c)
dinner: extra potato pancakes with sour cream and facon with ginger ale (~750c)
snack: ensure plus (350c)

total: 2120. thank heavens for nutella- it really saved me today. i had to get my foot x-rayed so i missed lunch completely and by the time i got home it wasn't worth eating so i just waited until dinner.

Friday, July 16, 2010

day 81

breakfast: ensure plus (350c)
lunch: rest of cheese stuffed burger with chips (~510c)
snack: freeze pop (20c) part of a toblerone (110c)
dinner: potato pancakes with sour cream and facon with ginger ale (~550c)
snack: ensure plus (350c)

total: 1890. not the greatest, but seeing as i had such a rough night that i slept until 11...i'm reasonably pleased with the calorie count

day 80

ensure plus x2, garlic stuffed olives, chips, hamburger with cheese, sparkling water, kit kat (not in that order necessarily). i didn't count the calories

Thursday, July 15, 2010

day 79

i'll be honest...i know it was yesterday, but i don't remember what i ate.

ensure plus, kit kat, hamburger with cheese, some ginger ale....i don't know exactly. stuff lol

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

day 78

breakfast: two slices nutella bread (~600c)
lunch: chicken fingers, corn on the cob, potato chips, gingerale (~660c)
snack: kit kat bar (210c)
dinner: potato pancakes with cheddar cheese, sour cream, and facon with ginger ale (~640c)


total: 2110

Monday, July 12, 2010

day 77

brunch: ensure plus and trix (460c)
snack: peppermint patty (150c)
lunch: stir fry (see previous) plus chips and 3 glasses of lemonade (~400+150+180= ~730c)
dinner:grilled corn and lemon pepper grilled chicken with two slices of bread with butter and ginger ale (906c)
snack: two slices nutella (light on it tonight though) (~500c)

total: 2746. what a fatty. thank heaven for butter...which is crazy high in calories and low volume between the bitter on my corn/cooking the chicken/bread and butter it was probably an easy 400c