After being sick for so long, I finally have a name for my illness: Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome, otherwise known as P.O.T.S.

A cardiac condition that's stripped me of my health, weight (causing me to drop to anorexic weight), self confidence, friends, jobs and continuing my education.

My goals are simple: gain weight, be healthier, and get out more. Basically, get my life back!

I'm also hoping to spread some awareness on this little known condition, and to highlight the struggles of the underweight and people with "invisible illnesses."

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

*break*

i'm leaving for florida today, so i won't be updating. i'll try to remember what i ate, but it's unlikely so i probably won't go back and update when i get back. i'll try my best to eat what i can though

Monday, June 28, 2010

64

Breakfast: ensure plus (350c)
Lunch: gingerale, potatoe pancakes with sour cream, cheddar cheese, tiny amount of facon bits (~640c)
Dinner: half personal pizza with mushrooms, black an green olives, and mozzarella cheese (~450c)
Snack: slice nutella bread (~400c)

Total:

63

Brunch: ensure plus (350c)
Snack: gingerale, rice cakes (~200c) 2 slices cheese (+240c) = 440c
Dinner: half hamburger, small amount of pasta (~450c)
Snack: piece of nutella bread (400c)

Total: 1640

Saturday, June 26, 2010

62

Brunch: ensure plus and chocolate donut (350c+~300c= 650c)
Snack: gingerale, rice cakes (~200c)
Dinner: hashbrown casserole- condensed milk (instead of eggs, which i love but can't have :( ) hashbrown potatoes, cheddar cheese,onion and ham (260+90+100+ 160= 610c)
Snack: half sweetart roll, salted almonds, fruit baby food (80+100+80=260)

Total: 1710

now i'm entering into the hard part. i'm nervous about flying to florida, and that usually translates to me not eating because a.) being nervous makes me sick, and b.) i'm worried that something i eat will make me sick on the plane

Friday, June 25, 2010

61

Breakfast: Ensure plus, slice of nutella bread (~700c)
Lunch: kfc popcorn chicken, "margarita" drink (~400c)
Snack: hershey bar (210c)
Dinner: pepperjack and salami sandwich, ginger ale (~600c)
Snack: slice nutella bread (~300c)

Total: 2210

Thursday, June 24, 2010

60

Breakfast: Ensure plus, slice of nutella bread (~700c)
Lunch: pasta, olives, salad dressing with gingerale with rice cakes (~590c)
Snack: hershey bar (210c)
Dinner: hamburger, fries, dr. pepper (~700c thank you mcdonalds)
Snack: port wine cheese and crackers with gingerale (135+89+180=404c)

Total:2604- stomach felt better today, can you tell? lol

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

59

Breakfast: Ensure plus, (350c)
Snack: i don't remember. i know there was something in there but i have no idea what
Dinner: hamburger, cheese, roll, gingerale (over the course of the night)- (858c)
Snack: 2 slices nutella bread (~700c)

Total: 1908